Current mood: satisfied

I just came in from an exhausting but wonderful interview– all day.

I LOVE interviewing people! I really do, because I am naturally curious. So, I can’t tell you who the celeb was just yet, because it’s a part of a future project. I will say though that it was an enlightening and moving conversation.

We really are only battling the demons we create. Take responsibility people!!

Inside (my head) joke: “Can I have a rib? Just one rib?!”

ALSO- I worked on this shoot with my peeps Kristal, Ham, and T’Rah: 3 of my favoritest people on the planet.

It’s funny because the celeb on the shoot shared the same insecurity that many blackfolks do about skin color. For those non-afros in cyber space, many black people really do believe that only lighter berries give beautiful juice. So the person expressed a fear of the makeup artist making her look like a “milk dud”– cause she was brown but didn’t want brown makeup! For a second, I was back in 6th grade with Yulissa singing Ugly Young Thing to me because I was the darkest person in the class, and Black is Beautiful skipped our generation!

As a probable “milk dud” it took about 15 minutes before I remembered that I am now an adult, a beautiful black woman, and it’s all good. I love my skin– and whatever you look like, vanilla to cocoa– love yours!

90% of other people’s opinions of you are based on their own insecurities. Her comment, including one about “face masks,” threatened to obliterate the words of someone I love telling me how especially pretty he felt I looked today. Don’t forget– we get to choose who to listen to.

“I call you sun cause you shine like one….”

So, in other news, I received my novel manuscript back from my editor to make corrections and WOW I am very impressed and proud of myself. I never printed out the 458 pages of DARE that I wrote, so to receive this huge stack of paper that I WROTE via DHL is sheer lunar madness. My editor Abby Zidle is the BOMB and I am ready to dig into her comments. I LOVE writing. We decided to push the book back to December when I will be the ONLY African American book being released by Pocket Books/Simon & Schuster. That’s what’s up.

It’s official people, I AM A WRITER! Yay!! I feel so legit, y’all….

Did I ever tell you that someone, without ever reading a word that I wrote, hated on me by recommending that my agent find a ghost writer? Can I tell you what vindication it was when my agent told me that I was one of the best young writers she’s read? And this person was a “friend.” Be aware of whom you allow into your cypher, ok? And it’s ok if people don’t believe in you. You’ll just have to believe in you twice as much.

xoxox

Currently reading :
Dare
By Abiola Abrams
Release date: 11 December, 2007